8/365

I’m writing this from my phone which is quite convenient. It’s freezing cold well it’s been freezing cold the last couple of days and I just hate being cold. I am miserable in the cold, my hands freeze up my face feels like it’s going to fall off my hair feels brittle my skin all over is cold to the touch. Ah I just hate it. So I’m covered in blankets an colds, wearing double socks while I write this post; then I’m off to bed so then morning can come and I can bask in the sun a little bit longer. I really can’t wait til summer comes around. I spent my night watching instagram reels which is not so good since my misogi for the beginning of the year was to get off socials. No luck. Also this whole wanting to lose weight I just don’t think I’m putting in enough time into. I wish for a reset a start over a promise I’ll be good again I’ll try harder. Being on instagram and seeing the reels makes me feel happy and good but also I just want to feel that about myself and my life. Work was hectic today and it’s good for now but I hope one day I’m not in that field anymore. I just don’t know how to get out of it so im filling my time with other things and hobbies to make myself happy it’s just actually doing it.

-Marihanna