It might be a curse..

Remembering every little thing is an absolute curse. Do I really need to remember my student ID number from 10 years ago. Or my ex's number? I always surprise someone with a moment that they had forgotten and they always reply back, "I can't believe you remembered that." As if they are shocked that I would still care to retain that memory inside my little ol' head. But truthfully it's sort of big so maybe that's why- I'm holding so many moments in time that they just must not care as much as I do. It's not intentional that I remember things..it just happens. I wish I could forget the bad memories but then I wouldn't have all the good ones.

It's pretty easy to remember numbers but there's no reason to remember an ex's number, right? Like if I was stranded in the middle of the forest and had signal, I would definetly call my sisters or parents and I'm sure they'd save me. However, if they werent available who would I call? I mean yes other family.. but what if they weren't available either? Would you dial the 10 digit number from the person you no longer talk to? Would he even help?

I remember all of my dates. I like to think of myself as a serial dater. The past few years I have been going on dates like wild. Right now it feels good to take a break. I still remember each and every one of them to this day. Surprisingly the dates I have been on taught me a lot about myself and less about the other person.

Now I'm comfortable going home after the first date . I no longer feel obligated to go to his house after dinner. Can you believe I felt like that? Just gross, but hey it was something I had to go through.

Or how now I can stand in a room confident on my own rather than belittling myself to fit in his shadow.

I remember the worst dates and the not so worst dates. There were a few dates that right off the bat I immediately knew he wasn't my prince charming. On the other hand the little curious cat in me always decided to stay on the date, she was glad to be out and to where the night can lead us.

...upcoming story.. the french man.

Love, Me