I can feel it .. love is in the air

welp I just wrote how I was feeling and then my darn page refreshed and my whole journal was deleted and never saved. Do you understand how frustrating that is? Well what I was saying was that I am in my yearning stage. And it is so odd that I am because the whole month of January I was so good about it, I did not look twice at a man, nor care to date one. But as soon as February hit it was like SLAM! right in my face. What is up with that? God are you testing me? It must be all the lovey doveyness in the air that's making me feel this way. I'm excited to meet my future person. It's like he's going to want to hang out with me, and were going to be able to make so many fun, great memories. It's the idea of going on our first date, inviting him over into my room, having him meet my family and three amazing sisters. It's all of that I want all of that. I know there's much more for me to do inside- healing wise and just being able to stand independently without a man because do we really need them anyways? But it's really just the idea of falling in love with someone that brings me warmth and a smile to my face. I know he's out there wherever and whoever he is that he'll come in divine timing. I won't rush it but I couldn't help but to spill my guts onto this page because if I didn't have this I'd probably download one of those dating apps which I sworn never to bother with again in a million years. Those are what I like to consider hell. Anyways yup that's me right now, head is on cloud nine with hearts surrounding me like those birds when someone in a cartoon movie passes out. I don't even know how he looks like this man I'll end up falling in love with that's what makes this so amusing to me. Right now I have no one in mind and I'll like to keep it that way until then. There's much else to focus on and that's what is keeping me busy. I hope everyone who is looking or not looking finds some type of love this month.

Love, ME